So I didn't pick my surgery date very intelligently. I should have chosen a week later since it would have given me a chance to do something fun for a week. Perhaps go on a vacation somewhere for a couple of days, relax, hang out with family, have a small celebration to conclude my formal education. All would have been very much enjoyed. Instead, I chose to hop up on the operating table ASAP...which means I get to conclude my medical school rotations getting bones broken, hip socket formed, and a stay in the hospital. As if I didn't get enough hospitals during medical school...I get to spend 3-5 consecutive days after school is done...what a way to finish off with a bang, eh?
All in all though, I am very thankful things have fallen into place and that I am able to have my surgery done at the most convenient time possible. I realize that having surgery is never convenient, but this is the best possible scenario. The thought of trying to do the other side during residency may be another beast in its entirety....but let's focus on the task at hand: finish med school, get left hip fixed. I can do this!
Now I just need to stay positive for the remainder of school until the surgery. I'm trying so very hard and it goes in cycles of "I can do this" to "Holy crap...why?" I believe this is normal but it doesn't make it any easier having to control the roller coaster of emotions and doubts whilst keeping up with life. Soon enough though, I will be able to leave school behind and focus on healing myself up. I am, in fact, excited to turn this next page and begin the recovery process (and yes, I know it will SUCK post op....I ain't naïve...although sometimes I wish I were as there may be less pre-op anxiety).
There are a couple things I promise myself as I approach surgery:
Obey my surgeon
Don't be a hero
Embrace the experience
|Putting these up here now so that somebody can rifle these at me in about 8 weeks time.|