I always thought that friends are there for you, through thick and thin. There to support and encourage. Not necessarily to just socialize when times are going smoothly, but for a shoulder to cry on and a word of support when the going gets though. I am pretty sure this is what a friend is supposed to do.
I was utterly let down this past week. I won't get into the specifics, but, I have a friend who I would consider one of my best friends. We have been 'best friends' for like 15 years. This past week I received a Facebook message telling me that she is mad at me because I wouldn't go out shopping with her and that she felt I didn't want to see her. Excuse me, but she has no idea how much I would have loved to go out with her shopping. But I can't do that, I can't stand at the moment. I haven't responded to her message, but I really don't think she knows how much she hurt my feelings. I have hip chick friends with whom I have never had any direct physical contact, known for only a couple of months, and they are more concerned about my feelings than my long time friend of more than a decade. It is heart breaking. I am pretty emotional these days leading up to my appointment with my surgeon as I could very well be off to surgery in the near future and have to take a year out from school. Meanwhile, I have a friend who is definitely not supporting me through this difficult time. I'm not asking for much. I don't expect her to ever understand what I am going through, and I don't want others to have to go through what I am dealing with currently. All I ask is a little bit of empathy and consideration for my current health situation. It breaks my heart that she feels this way. I would bend over backward for anybody who needed help, and my friends' response: you aren't spending enough time with me. I am crying as I am typing this because I thought that my friend would have been there for me and all she cares about is herself. I guess going through difficult times really brings out peoples' true colours. And I want to tell everybody out there who has given me support and encouragement: thank you!